It's been a while.... [Archive] - Doc Mike Bradley Parenting Forums

Shae

06-06-2006, 11:11 PM

Well Doc. B. it has been a while since I last posted. In fact you may not even remember me or my story, but that is ok. I figured I'd post and give you an update, because you said it would be ok to do so. Anyway, so much has happened since I first wrote that I don't even know for sure where to start. As I stated the last time we talked I took your advice and started seeing a counselor. Well here we are about a year later, and my relationship with my counselor has changed so much. He is an awesome guy, and I've really come to like the fact that he is there to help me. It took me a while to come to trust him...(go figure) but now I trust him...a ton. He still doesn't know everything about me and my life...but we work with what I've given him and our sessions most generally turn out great. It isn't that I try to hide things from him....quite the contrary actually. I try to be as honest and open as I can be...it's just some things are easier to talk about than others. Which he understands and is totally ok with. It is nice to have him. To have him there to talk to about anything and everything that has happened, that is happening, or that might happen at some future date. I still get nervous before our sessions, but nothing compared to like what it once was. I make eye contact more now, and feel that "connection" I think I longed for, for so long. As I said, he is a wonderful man. Probably one of the most genuine and honest people I think I've ever met. He keeps me on my toes and is always throwing out new things. I am so very thankful that I took that first step and decided to go in. You were right you know....it truly makes for a better life. I am not completely fixed yet (will I ever be??) and I still have a ton to work on (believe you me) and I don't like to give myself credit, but actually I've learned a lot from my counselor, and I've come to apply a lot of what I've learned to my life. Like I said, still tons to work on...but at least now I have a "road map" and a "compass" to help me along the way when I get a little lost. Sometimes in therapy I feel a bit stuck when I can't come up with something to talk about....or I have something and it is just hard to get out of my mouth, but when all is said and done I am grateful I went and I feel like part of that great weight which I've carried for so long has been lifted. It has been an eye opening experience. One I bucked at for far to long. But now I've finally come to my senses and realized that in order to have a better life, I've got to work at it...and have someone besides myself to help out along the way. Anyway, I just thought I'd drop in and tell you how things are going. As I said, I sometimes still feel a bit stuck...but maybe one of these days that will slowly leave too. Thanks for your time. Hope everything is going well your way.
Shae
P.S. You won't believe this....after three semesters of doing English education (major) work...I've changed my major to....yes, you guessed it...psychology. I couldn't be happier with my choice...and I am eating up these classes let me tell you!!! I think I've finally found something I can be happy with and enjoy the rest of my life! It is such a great field...and I really, really, really love it! The only down side is....the stats class I am taking this term. When I declared psych as my major I thought I was done with math...looks like I was wrong. Anyway, yes...psychology is the place for me! Have a good one.