Mother of Five Teens
I am a mother of five teens raging in ages between 13 and 18. Three wonderful boys and two lovely girls.
We were approached a few weeks ago to participate in a pilot TV show (name cannot be revealed). Regardless the objective of the show was to be mealtime it turned out to be very personal and analysed our relationships as parents and teens.
Lots of family issues came out of this four day session and the kids shared a lot of themselves with the host (family therapist) that we had absolutely no knowledge about.
This event made the kids feel good but left me (the MOM) with many confusing thoughts. I now feel completely ... confused, frustrated, hurt, attacked, empty, scared, unknowledgable, worthless, sad, unfit to be a mom ... just to name a few. It appears from what the kids shared that we are not there for them and that they are totally scared to share anything with me because of what my reactions might be emotionally. I also feel totally alone with these feelings as they (the kids) have shared their thoughts and I have had to "swallow" what they were saying. It appears from the discussions that I am to blame for everything and that they are totally correct in everything they assume. I don't know what to do with anything anymore. I question everything I do, everything I say, every move I make. I feel I cannot not discuss any of this with any of them, including my husband, as I am tired of been judge. What's next !!!! What should I do. Can you help !!!