(i posted this in the alchohol/drugs section, too...)
i`m not a parent, and legally, i`m not even an adult. I read your book, however, and was impressed with your level of insight into the adolescent mind. I wrote this message in the alchohol thread, but it doesn`t belong there, entirely. I am planing on seeing my doctor about depression, however, because he is a long time friend of the family, i feel that it would be hard to tell him all the issues i have been dealing with.
i have been living the past to years in a sort of cloud. during the summer, i feel ok, but through most of the fall, winter, and spring, i am lifeless. i don`t want to do anything with my friends, i sleep all the time or can`t sleep at all, i drink heavily whenever i get the chance, and i sometimes resort to cutting myself or erasing my skin to help me feel alive.
That`s the average depression part. however, i also sometimes have strange instances when i wake up in the middle of the night. i can`t really describe them well, but i`ll try. I wake up out of a nightmare. However, even though i am awake and can see and move, i am still filled with a dreadful horror that can only be described as a foretaste of hell. These episodes last for about twenty or thirty minutes. I only have them in the winter times, and they occur at random intervals, sometimes three times a week, sometimes there is a full month between them.
Any explanations/suggestion would be appreciated more than you can imagine....